Apathy

That's the opposite of Love.

Not Hate.

But Apathy. Indifference.

Because if you hate someone, you still care enough to hate.

And if you don't care, you won't bother to feel anything at all.

We've been talking about this during the past few cat classes(equivalent to sunday school).

And I'm starting to get numb, because that's how I feel sometimes.
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Love is all about taking risks.

It's putting yourself in a vulnerable position.

You don't know when the other person will lash out against you.

Whether it's love within a friendship, within a parent-child relationship, or within a romantically-based relationship; you risk getting hurt.

I used to think that I would only involve myself in friendships and parent-child relationships, because I'll still need a parent no matter what, and I don't think I could ever survive without friends.

But after talking about the risk of getting hurt in all types of relationships, I'm starting to wonder if I should actually stop opening myself up to more friends, and closing myself from some.

I don't want to get hurt.
Heck, I'm SCARED of getting hurt.

It's been twice now that I've experienced hurt from drifting away from close friends.

And I don't want to get hurt all over again.


"Better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all,"

But I digress.

Better to have never loved, and to never have gotten hurt, than to love and lost, and to suffer from heartbreak.

But I know the one person I'll keep loving, for he has, is, and will always love me no matter what.

He who lives in the holy trinity; My Lord and my God.

And I'll find a way to live, because you love me.