Someone. Help.

I'm supposed to be studying, needless to say.

Surrounded by mountains of notes, files, textbooks and whatnot.

But I'm not.

I haven't even started studying I.H. yet.

Dang it all.

I'm sick and tired of this studying, but I want my 3-point-something GPA.

Arrgh.

I sound like a cross between a brainless bimbo and spoilt brat, don't I?

I'm a bl*&^% slacker.
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They're all so fake.

After seeing how this whole system works, instead of strengthening my faith, it made me realise how much I don't want to be like that; and now my faith is staring to falter.

I don't want to become like that; but I want to believe.

Must I become like that, once I've made my decision?

Will I become like that, once it's all said and done?

Someone, help me believe.

I don't know if it's entirely because of this that my faith's starting to crumble, but the friendships have become strained, and this looks like a farce to me; and now I'm not so sure.

Bring me back, please.

I want to return to where I was before.

I want to believe again.
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Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

-Snow Patrol, Run
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I feel so sad.

Someone, make me happy please.