Blind, by Lifehouse

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
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I just want to get away from all this
To be of no relation to everything.
Ironic, isn't it?
When all's calm comparatively, I want Out. And I didn't choose to be In in the first place, anyway.
It's my own Life. I know when to study; and when I choose to rest.
I'm not a machine.
I don't need you to control and complain about what I do.
I'm not going to do my thing according to how you're going to plan it for me.
Just because the way I do things coincide with the way you want them to be done up till now, doesn't mean that I've been following your plan for me.
This is my life. Live yours. Not mine.
And you; I want no relation with you at all.
Even if you're suddenly there. You're so fake.
You weren't there before. What's with it now?
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Now I realise that it's all a fluke. This education path.
Everyone's vying to attain the best results, to get into a university, then higher qualification then everyone else.
By then, it will be the numbered few with the first class honours and doctorates who will get the better job positions.
Could have just taken a more specific path along the polytechnic route and gotten diplomas to get other jobs. But I didn't want to disappoint you and you.
But now, I don't care anyway.
I want to stay on because I can't let myself down.
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From now on, I am me.
I'm going to be different.
I'm going to have reasons which contradict yours and yours.

From now on, I'm going to be a different me:
One that's not like you.

-The words come crashing upon me once again